Dancing in the Now: I'm a whore for love and acceptance

Tuesday, 24 March 2009

I'm a whore for love and acceptance

Such is my need for love and acceptance that it seems to contaminate everything, even the simplest actions. Is there any way to escape from this?

OK. first by being aware of and then transparent about my 'whoring for love and acceptance' I begin to catch and deflate the expectations I put on my actions. I open this process with my friends and in this blog. The unconscious impulse to look for love and acceptance from others loses some of its power.

But this very action and this blog are in themselves cries for love and acceptance. "See how open and honest I am." "See how couragous I am." "See what a comitted spiritual path I am on." ..... "and please love and accept me for these!"

The questions now seem to be:
Can I find love for myself as I become aware of how this need from my deep hurt influences and manipulates all my relationships? and
Can my love for myself be unconditional if my love and actions with others have this conditionality underlying them?

I feel like I am working on a koan.

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Human crisis happens within a context. The contexts we live in are a complex balance of our personal beliefs, our emotions, our body and our relationships. But our personal context lives, grows and dies within a wider complex balance of thought, emotion, the economy, the earth & its ecology, our family history and other cultures on our planet.

Much human thought and action is based on the idea that we can know the 'mind of God'. We have believed that we can control the complex web of life in our favour. Crisis is, and always has been, an opportunity for change and learning. But in western cultures we try and isolate ourselves from pain and change with: anaesthetics, insurance policies, prisons, walls, security systems, drugs, border police, institutions, plastic surgery and so on.

These attempts to control or separate ourselves from the pains of life usually displace the crisis: some having the benefits of this control and others suffering the pains. And indeed every day, trying to control our pains, we eliminate elements of this complexity (plants, animals, species, earth resources, cultures, languages, …). Our global ecology, economy, demography and relationships are now being stretched to their limits.

We simple humans do not know how to solve this crisis. Our priests, politicians, economists, industrialists and other so called authorities are as lost as most of the rest of us. We cannot know the depth of complexity involved in this global dynamic balance. We need to ask for help from greater spiritual authorities.

This is Dancing in the Now. Only by moving beyond our comfort zone in the Now to fully feel the pains of our crisis we begin to wale up and feel again. In this way we receive guidance on how to move and act. It cannot be found through thinking and planning.

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Tuesday, 24 March 2009

I'm a whore for love and acceptance

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