Dancing in the Now: Learning to ask

Friday, 9 October 2009

Learning to ask

As this gets closer I have some moments of great fear as well as entering into a kind of pre-death peace with myself and the world.

Over the weekend, out of desparation, I was trying to let a room in my flat ..... to delay the moment a bit longer. I set to cleaning and throwing stuff out ... and did my back in so had to spend two days mostly on the sofa, with little movement ... and recurrent fantasies of ending up a cripple, homeless, sleeping under a bridge. My adverts to let the room have come to nothing. But meditating away from my desparate thoughts and connecting with the NOW - "I am well, what do I need now?" ... a massage. My lovely ex came to mind, "but she has a boyfriend and is sure to be busy" .... I trust my inner feeling and ask with an SMS. "I'll be over later", came the rapid reply.

I also asked to win the lottery ... but it didn't happen.

So 1 out of 3 in the asking lesson. What is the difference between them? In the first and last I am asking from desparation and with expectation. In the second (successful) case I ask out of need and with no expectation.

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Human crisis happens within a context. The contexts we live in are a complex balance of our personal beliefs, our emotions, our body and our relationships. But our personal context lives, grows and dies within a wider complex balance of thought, emotion, the economy, the earth & its ecology, our family history and other cultures on our planet.

Much human thought and action is based on the idea that we can know the 'mind of God'. We have believed that we can control the complex web of life in our favour. Crisis is, and always has been, an opportunity for change and learning. But in western cultures we try and isolate ourselves from pain and change with: anaesthetics, insurance policies, prisons, walls, security systems, drugs, border police, institutions, plastic surgery and so on.

These attempts to control or separate ourselves from the pains of life usually displace the crisis: some having the benefits of this control and others suffering the pains. And indeed every day, trying to control our pains, we eliminate elements of this complexity (plants, animals, species, earth resources, cultures, languages, …). Our global ecology, economy, demography and relationships are now being stretched to their limits.

We simple humans do not know how to solve this crisis. Our priests, politicians, economists, industrialists and other so called authorities are as lost as most of the rest of us. We cannot know the depth of complexity involved in this global dynamic balance. We need to ask for help from greater spiritual authorities.

This is Dancing in the Now. Only by moving beyond our comfort zone in the Now to fully feel the pains of our crisis we begin to wale up and feel again. In this way we receive guidance on how to move and act. It cannot be found through thinking and planning.

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Friday, 9 October 2009

Learning to ask

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