When do I see clearly?

Over this last week, and in many other moments, when I am working to help people, I receive guidance, images, feelings about what to suggest or ask. These feelings are mostly accurate and useful, opening up some healing process for whoever I am working with. More and more I trust this inner vision.

But the moment I have some personal interest in the relationship, affective, work, survival, ... then my desperation for love and approval completely clouds my vision. I don't even listen to what is being said by the other, I invent my own dialogue. I want to 'get into bed with and marry' the other, before even knowing their name. Or I reject them out of hand, without seeing what is really in front of me.

There is a third space of listening. In my dreams, rituals and prayers for guidance for myself I also receive feelings and images: "Dance and clean" for example. Clearly I have a deep personal interest in the process and results emerging from any such visions. But can I trust them, especially when I see that my personal interest clouds my vision? I think yes, when there are these 'mad' kind of visions like 'dance & clean'. This neither builds acceptance or rejection. It is more in the line of "La Locura Lo Cura".

I have to learn to beware of these other voices which find magic solutions or demons in my relationships. These are the real mad voices. This is the moment to find my 'joker'. to giggle at any imagined success or failure for my personal 'skills and resources'.

Maybe my request in my medicine wheel is not helping me here. I have been asking for guidance to best use "MY" skills and resources for peace, love and understanding. It feels now that it might be more humble and more effective to ask to be opened as a clean channel for "God's work to be done" for peace, love and understanding.